broken down

i surrender i fall
i give you my all
i fall to my knees
i beg you lord please
i beg you Lord take me back
i beg you Lord fill this crack
i beg you Lord fill the cracks of my heart
i beg you Lord heal my broken heart
im broken im shattered
my heart is torn and tattered
im crying im sobbing
all i want is my heart to stop throbbing
i long for that peace i once had
im sick and tiered of being torn apart and sad
i take my sins and i lay them at your feet
i shed my pride and i admit defeat
i am broken down to the ground
and only threw Jesus Christ can i be found.

BY THE GRACE OF GOD

By the grace of God I am alive
By the grace of God I can open my eyes
By the grace of God I can stand on my own two feet knee deep in a world gone aerie
By the grace of God I can fight evil
By the grace of God I can stand and I can fight
By the grace of God I can fight all night
By the grace of God I can love
By the grace of God I WILL love
By the grace of God I can look beyond your past,
By the grace of God I can show you the love of God that will forever last.
By the grace of God I can forgive and forget
By the grace of God I can help you reach what you never thought you can get
By the grace of God I can help you along a great path
By the grace of God I am your brother
By the grace of God I can stand by your side
By the grace of God I will fight the good fight
By the grace of God I CAN

When it rains it pours, rain gear.

Ok so here is the deal, there are going to be days when God rains down his grace and his love, days when he will bestow great things in your life, like a good grades, your football team wins, your out skating and you land a heel flip for the first time, you get a girlfriend or boyfriend. Days when the good stuff just keeps coming. And we love times like that rite? I know I sure love those days weeks months were life is on a roll and everything is just going so super great! But then there are those days were life is on the downside, when you loose the big game, you get a bad grade, your girlfriend or boy friend breaks up with you, you find out your parents are splitting up. Now those are times no one likes… I mean those are the times when you feel alone, scared, angry , and overall bad! Those are the times when you need to know that God is there with you even though you feel he is far away. Satan is constantly trying to bring you down he is always trying to make you feel bad, trying to break you away from God! Those are the times when it rains down the bad rain and if your not careful you can drown, trust me no matter how bad life gets if you give up it will get worse. So you have to put on your armor, and with that being said can I get the first slide? “10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms” so what its saying so far is to put on your armor everyday, and to stand firm in your faith. Next slide. “13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place” so when it says to put on your armor of God think of it as praying! That is the first piece of armor you need everyday! 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place” (as Austin puts on a rain coat and gloves) now see Austin has put on his “belt of truth” and his “breastplate of righteousness” but he still isn’t ready to go out in the rain just yet next slide. :15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.”
(I plan to just wing it from here and after he is all prepped for rain were going to pelt him with “flaming arrows“ {Nerf bullets} and then close in prayer )

When it rains it pours pt2 (satan rains sin)~Sermon

I'm going to be real with you, this last week i had a real hard time with faith, temptation, and sin... the only way i was able to get threw it was by prier, by putting on my armor, by having faith even though i didn't want to, and Fellowship having others pray for me and with me. just cause i am a big Christian doesn't mean I'm not vulnerable to Satan's tricks in fact it makes us as followers of Christ a bigger target! Satan is going to try and break us down tear us apart, and build his army of sinners, he wants to spread his hate and his sin and by breaking us down! When we are broken down and losing our faith, That's when Satan strikes! thats when he moves in and fires his flaming arrows of Hate, Disperse, Sadness, and Anger! Satan wants us to be his little puppets, he wants us to spread HATE ANGER SADNESS AND DESPAIR he wants us to rain down his darkness, he wants us to pour down his misery. You have all heard that saying “Misery loves company” rite? Well I look at it like “Satan loves company” , I don't know about you but I don't want to be in the company of Satan! I don't want anything to do with Satan! So what we have to do is stand firm! Even though there are times when we just want to give up and renounce or faith, because life just feels so hard and feels like your going nowhere fast, thats when you need to believe in God the most! thats when you need to know that God loves you and will be here for you and he always has! Revelation 21:6-7 “6 He said to me: “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. 7 Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children“.
Rite there! “The beginning and the end” he was here before us and he will be here after we are long gone..
He will be our God and us his children! He is our father and the devil hates that! The devil wants to break that bond! So he throws all these evils into our lives! He wants us to be broken.. We as followers of Christ no we as CHILDREN OF CHRIST are the biggest threat to Satan. When we stand side by side and put on our breastplate of righteousness, pick up our shield of faith, grab hold of the sword of the spirit, we become Warriors of God's army! We stop letting Satan rule over those around us, we take the lead in this spiritual war! Satan likes to rain down his evil and pour out his sin! God on the other hand likes to rain down his MERCY and pour out His GRACE! Who would you rather be in the presence of?

Forgivness (message)

    Ok so I want to talk to you about forgiveness today. Not just any forgiveness but Gods forgiveness! And yes there is a difference and its big! Here is the thing, God loves us and he made us all with this thing we call free will. Now the thing about free will is that it means we can be influenced to do things. Be them good things or bad things… And God will forgive us for the bad things, but I’m not saying go out and brake all the rules or go and sin as much as you can. What I’m saying is that as humans we ARE going to slip up, its not the end of the world. And God forgives us for our slip ups and the only thing we have to do for his forgiveness is ASK him! I don’t mean say “oh hey God I’m sorry forgive me?” I’m saying pray and ask God “Lord I’m sorry for my slip ups, I know what is did wasn’t for you. I ask Lord in the name of your son Jesus Christ, Please Lord forgive me.” and if you truly mean it God will forgive you! Its not the act of asking, its asking and meaning it with all your heart! Its knowing that you messed up and wanting to learn and fix your mistakes! And that’s what makes Gods forgiveness different then our forgiveness! Now I’m going to read something from the bible 1 John 1:9 and it states "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." now that’s straight out of the bible! Now I’m going to tell you a story, there was once this man with two sons and one day his youngest sons up and said.. “Dad I want my half of the estate and riches,” so his dad gave it to him soon after he said “forget you dad I can do this on my own and left.. The son went out and wasted all of what his dad gave him threw wild living and then when he realized he was broke he started looking for work he found a job but it didn’t pay well in the least he was starving he didn’t have enough money to keep him self fed he realized that back home his dad took care of his workers and fed them and paid them good but he was working so hard and was starving. So once he finally realized he was in the wrong he decided to go back to his dad and say “dad I’m so sorry for what I have done and I am not worthy to be your son but please give me job” so he set off back home. He was walking down the road and his dad saw him. His dad was so full of joy to see his son was safe and alive he ran to him a wrapped his arms around him! Now this isn’t just any story guys that story is right out of the bible its called the lost son! And it just goes to show Gods forgiveness.. Look at it as we are the son and Christ is the father we run away and when we come home Christ is so happy to see us he is willing to forgive us as long as we ask and really mean it! That is the grace of our God!

MY TESTIMONY (SPOKEN WORD)

Depressed and alone, anxious and cold.
I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry, I wanted to lay down and just die!
Full of anger and despair , living my life with not even one care!
No were to turn to, no were to go, I didn't give a dang, I just wanted to go!
I wanted some thing more, I wanted something real,
I yearned for something, just something to feel!
I turned to evil, I thought it was fate, I sold those drug and man I thought it was great!
Getting high all day, getting drunk all night, partying it up until it ended in a fight .
Slamming my fist, pounding away . Throwing a savage beating cause he called me gay.
This is what I lived for, this was all I breathed, anger and carnage it dwelled inside of me.
That was my life for years on end, I dint think it would change or even bend!
The only problem was no matter how much I smoked or how much I drank, I still felt fake.
I still wanted to scream, I still wanted to cry, I still wanted to lay down I still wanted to die,
I was still full of anger and full of despair. I was full of dark feelings but I tried not to care.
Ya I knew about God, I heard what He can do, I tried it once or twice before, but in an instant I just knew!
I knew it was time, it was time for me to give Him my life, and end all this strife.
Still drunk and stoned , laying in my bed I bowed my head, closed my eyes and started to cry.
Weeping away I ask Jesus to enter my heart, and I asked Him to stay!
Jesus is my drug of choice, He gave me a voice, He gave me a second chance. Now its time to take a stance.
Its time to stand firm, time to put down my pipe. Time give it all up and live the good life.
so here I go, jumping on in leaving a life of sin for life with Christ that dwells within.
Gave up the drinking, gave up the sex, gave it all up and asked “Christ what’s next?”
Christ spoke to me and said ministry, he told me to take my story and share it aloud, to stand up and be proud!
So there you go, that’s my life in a shell. You can ask what happens next but only time will tell…

LIFE(not finished)

I'm not going sugar coat it, life is hard.
It's not a walk threw the park, life is dark.
life isn't easy no its not breezy.
no not by any means, just look around and count the fiends.
just look around count the users, abuser ant the ones we as society label the "loosers"
here's a question "how are we better then them?" WAIT "are we better then them?"
NAY SAY NO WAY, NO HOW. NOT THEN NOT NOW!
we all the same were all sinners and were all to blame.
were all at fault for our own miss doings and our own miss-deeds,
Jesus Christ knew its so on the cross he hangs and bleeds!
can you fathom the the pain he went threw?
the agony, the anguish, and the death he died for you!?

FRENDS=TRUST (sermon i gave at HCC)

Oh so last week Jason talked about what?
Yes. FRIENDS, well were going to get deeper into friends , lets talk about trusting your friends. I know when I make a new friend I have to trust that person,. I mean I need to know this person will be there for me, threw some of the toughest times, like when I’m having a really bad day and I really need someone to talk to. I need to know that my friend will be there by my side. I need to know that my friends will do what they can to make it me feel better. When I think of friends I want to instantly smile. If your friends don’t make you smile I suggest you seriously think about why it is you aren’t smiling? An then think to your self if there really a friend? So trusting your friends means they wont lie to you, my buddy told me the other day that lies misplace trust. So with that being said why would you want a fried that would lie to you? I mean think about it would you lie to your friend? The good news is I know someone that wont lie to you, will always be there for you, and will even pick you up when you are fallen. His name is Jesus and he will always be by your side. Check this out "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6). So what its saying is if you trust the Lord you will be ok He will guide you. Lets break this down. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart". don’t trust evil, aka friends that want you to bad things or bring you away from God, what I’m saying is trust God, if your friend wants you to do something you don’t think is the best idea then stop and ask your self, ”would Jesus want me to do this?”. "Lean not on your own understanding". Don’t be arrogant for the Lord knows best. Listen to your mother and your father - the voice of experience. I hate to break it to you guys but your not wise enough to be your own guide. Its ok cuz neither am I. I have to trust in Gods will just like you. “In all your ways acknowledge Him and He Will direct your paths” God is there for you and your well-being. He will help you during those challenging times and through all of the storms. He will help you to make the right decisions and lead you in the right way. God can be your security and help you to face any challenge! With that being said I need someone to read something for me. Anyone brave enough to read out loud?
(reads 1 Corinthians 10:13)~ now what that is saying is that even threw the hardest time trust in God He will never give you more then you can handle! Lets pray.

one and the only

accountability (bible study sermon)

Lets talk about accountability, holding your self accountable. So I want each of us to think about something we struggle with a lot like a sin. Mine is sex more so lust, like as most of you already know I had a lot of problems with that.. And when I found god those problems didn’t just disappear but instead he gave me tools to overcome.. Look at me now I don’t have sex, I am not dating till I feel God wills it.. I wear this ring that states my devotion to Jesus, I use this ring to keep myself accountable, when I feel like slipping I look at the ring and know that its not what god wants of me.

We are all accountable for what we say and do. We are all ultimately accountable to God, and we should always remember to act accordingly. We are however also accountable to each other, to one another as fellow believers, holding fellow believers and Christians accountable. The Bible teaches us to encourage, pray for and correct one another in love, and in Christ. It is extremely useful to have people of the same mindset (i.e. fellow believers with the same goals) in our lives that we are accountable to. These “accountability partners” can help us stay focused, encourage us when we need strength, and help us get right back on track when we start to stray. We should also remember to be accountable to ourselves, holding ourselves responsible for our actions and for the results of our own actions – instead of blaming others. God also holds us accountable when we do not exhort others or fail to warn others who are going the wrong way.


“For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ. For it is written:
“ As I live, says the LORD, Every knee shall bow to Me,
And every tongue shall confess to God.”” (NKJV)

1 Thessalonians 5:11
James 5:16
Proverbs 24:24-25
Proverbs 12:15
Romans 14:11
Ezekiel 3:18-19
Romans 14:12
Psalm 51:5
1 John 2:2
2 Samuel 12:21-23

THE ONE AND THE ONLY

THE ONE AND THE ONLY

He is the creator of all, all that we know.

He is the air that we breath, the light that we seek.

He is the blood in our veins, the reliever of our pains.

He is the redeemer of our sin, the light that lays within.

He is all that we know and all that we are, he loves us so much even tho hes so far.

No mater how far, no matter the distance.

Remember that he is all ways here with us.

No matter the trials, no matter the tribulations.

Remember that he will always be with us.

No matter the sins, no matter the hate .

Remember that he is mighty and great.

No matter what you've done, no matter what you may do.

Remember that he will always love you.

He is my God, the one I pray to.

He is my God the father of me and you.

He is my God the one that gave his only son.

He is my God the one that loves each and everyone.

He is my God the one I hold dear.

He is my God the only one I do fear.

He is my God the one that is holy.

He is my God the one and the only!

NON BELIEVERS (THERE NOT THE PROBLEM WE ARE!!)

Now here is a touchy subject... "non believers" why is it that we as "good" Christians either A. Judge, B. Shun, C. Try to "convert" or D. all of the above when we meet non-believers? Now lets break this down. A/B : the bible states "Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.(A)"-Matthew 7:1-5. i believe it means to not judge for we are not perfect ourselves. "There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.(B)" Galatians 3:28 Basically we are all the same in the eyes of God. OK so as far as "C" goes the bible states "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.(C)" Matthew 28:19-20, now yes it dose say to go out and baptize the nations. but were dose it say we need to do it like we are better then others? look at it this way they (non believers) are like lost sheep that need a hand finding there way back to the shepherd. God is more concerned with the lost sheep then he is the rest of us... "Then Jesus told them this parable: "Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.'I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent." Luke 15:3-7 so get of you "holier then thou soap box" and open our eyes and see that we are all imperfect in gods eyes! now don't get me wrong i AM NOT saying don't preach and spread the Gospel what i am saying is ... don't force your views down someones thought or try and scar them into believing because if you do they don't truly believe they will one (believe) due to fear and wont really know Gods love! this only hinders there salvation when i was fallen i found "pushy" christians to be very off putting and well i felt like i was being judged all the time (and by the way when your a punk with a green mohawk and grimmy clothes you get pretty good at knowing when your being judged!). most christians tried to either scare me into believing or viewed me as i lost cause. if i can be frank for a moment that was when i needed god in my life the most thats when i needed someone to say to me hey man its cool if you don't believe but your still a good guy! what i didn't need was someone to tell me i was going to hell and i was living my life wrong! i needed some one with a down to earth attitude that was willing to be civl and talk to me about the word of God not preach the fear card to me. i guess what i'm really getting at here is with all the sin and hate in this world we need to be more understanding and open to non-believers because maybe its not that they don't want to believe maybe they just haven't been give the chance? maybe they are just so burnt out on the stereotypical christian like i was?who knows maybe they truly want to but are afraid? i leave you with this

"If your enemy is hungry, give him bread to eat,

and if he is thirsty, give him water to drink,

for you will heap burning coals on his head,

and the Lord will reward you."- proverbs 25:21-22

MY CRY TO GOD

I worship the Lord the Lord above

The Lord who shows me his endless love

I worship the Lord that gave his son

The son that shed blood for everyone

I worship the Lord the Lord the Lord my God

Even tho some say, hey thats mighty odd

Use me Lord use me now

Use me Lord i dont even care how

Take my hands and guide my faith

Cuz in your arms i know im safe

Just say the word and let me know

I promise you Lord i will never let go

With out you my Lord i know im lost

Oo i surrender it all at any cost

My Lord my God i give you all that i am

I give you all that i can

I give you it all tho im only one man.

TRUST

TRUST

When life gives you lemons what do you do? You make lemonade and wait for apples. When life gives you apples what do you do? You make apple pie, then you kick back, drink your lemonade, eat some pie and wait to see what life hands you next. Life is full of unexpected situations and hardships. It's the way life is; we all know this. This is why we must trust in God and keep our faith in God providing for us because scripture tells us “God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus!”- Philippians 4:19. So if you don't get that raise or that car you have always wanted then relax! All this means is God isn't ready for you to have that car or raise just yet or ever! Don't you dare lose faith just because things didn't work out the way you wanted them to, remember Christ Jesus knows best and “His will be done”. Sometimes it may not feel like it; heck some days it may feel like God wants us to suffer...well yes. Sadly enough he dose, “For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him” Philippians 1:29. God dose want us to be happy but more then our happiness, God is with our character. Now what happens if you give your child everything they want when they want it? You end up with spoiled children that expect the whole world on a silver platter, and when they don't get it they throw a fit and make life miserable for those around them. And quite frankly this is how I feel we act on a daily basis. When we don't get what we want we turn into those spoiled little children; we make life harder for those around us, we get irritable over small things that really don't matter, and we might even lose our faith when things don't work out. It's like we are so willing to give up on and forsake God, when actually this is the time we need to have more faith. This is when we need to trust in Christ the most. “God has wisely kept us in the dark concerning future events and reserved for himself the knowledge of them, that he may train us up in a dependence upon himself and a continued readiness for every event.-Matthew Henry”

evil prevails when good men do nothing!

Philosopher Edmund Burke, a wise man once said "all that is needed for evil to prevail is for good men to do nothing!". what dose that really mean? there are two types of ppl out there there are the good and the evil the sinners and the saints, the  believers and the non believers! there is no "in between" there is only one or the other! now i ask you , are you evil or are you good? are you a sinner or a saint? are you a believer or a fake?... look deep in your heart and ask yourself  "what do "I" do to stop evil from prevailing?" when you see someone getting mugged do i run the other way or do i run to help? when i see a kid fall off his bike crying in pain do i pick him up? do i ask him if he is ok? or do i keep walking? i know what i would do but "you" what would you do? dont answer that think about it.. dwell on it... from here on out i want you to think to yourself "what do i do to keep evil from prevailing? what do i do to make a difference? what do i do to keep evil from triumphing? what do i do?!!?? now say your hungry so you go to the mini mart. you grab a soda a bag of chips and you see there is a deal on sandwiches y'know buy one get one, so you get one. you are walking down the street eating your chips and enjoying your pop and you see a homeless person. someone down on there luck and you think to yourself " i have and extra sandwich, i wonder if this person is hungry?" so you give them the sandwich now here is were we determine your character... did you give them the sandwich out of the kindness of your hear or because you got it for free so  it was  it was "convenient!?" honestly had it not been free would you have given them YOUR sandwich? YOUR lunch? it seems that today we are only really willing to help out if it is "convenient" for US! now was it "convenient" for Jesus to give his life for our sins? Dont you think he had things he rather be doing.....LIKE LIVING A LONG LIFE?!! maybe have a family? maybe baptize the sinners and hal the sick.. BUT NO!! he gave his life to save us and resolve our sins... why because he is our savior and he is willing to put us first! how do we repay his deeds? we turn our backs on evil and let it consume the masses! how do you think he feels about the freedom he gave us? i think its time for us to to adopt a new mantra if you will.. i heard this from another wise man but he wasn't as famous ans Mr. Burke his name was Chris Feilds and he was my first youth pastor. he said "I AM 3RD" God is 1st others are 2ND AND I AM 3RD!!! 

my goals hereare to:

My goal is to get us to think to expand our minds in intellectual religious conversations! 

i may say some things you dont agree with but thus is the way of the 21st century....

please no offensive language, everyone is entitled to there own opinion!

no play safe