inner pain. (poem)

O.k, so this one is short, but it is such a heart felt one. this poem basically is a plea for God to deliver me from my inner demons, its a cry out to the father begging him to just forgive me and lift me up from the darkness Ive been wallowing in for some time now.

Broken, Contrite, Beaten, and Bruised.

Father deliver me yours to use.

Fire, brimstone, and Lies.

Father deliver me, Please Father open my eyes.

Sadness, Death, And Carnage that haunt my soul.

Father delver me fore your the only one that can make me whole.

Darkness, Depression, and Sacrifice.

Father deliver me i'm sick and tiered of trying to hide.

Tears, Pain, going threw life full of Shame.

Father deliver i'm ready to give it up for your Holy name!!

A Letter to my readers.

Dear readers,

If you know me outside of this virtual world, then you know that for the past month or so i have been very sedentary in my faith in fact you could say that after last Friday my faith was almost nonexistent.. i have been having such a hard time trying to wrap my head around life, around God, around want he wants me to do with my life. A dear friend of mine has past away on the 6th and well it really took its tole on me it really ripped me away from my belief system. i guess you can say that it was just the out i needed. the truth is, I am scared of living a good life for Christ. Yeah i know i have been living a life if Christ since 1/1/10 but.. so many things have been beating me down so much spiritual attack and so much uncertainty has invaded my mind and when Alex passed it was just like "GOD? are you there? where are you, why do i feel like you have left me? why don't i feel your love? why is Satan pulling me down? Please Father show me you care, show me you love me show me you are real!" and i couldn't take it so i just shut down but now i'm ready to live for God again, i guess the reason i'm telling you this is so you know that everyone is subject to the mental, emotional, and spiritual beat down we call life. i will be taking it slow i will be posting but.. don't be scared if my style changes. i'm still tony and i still love God but i need some time to figure out what God wants of me and my life..

PEACE, LOVE, AND KINDNESS

Tony May.

What is true faith? (a spoken word poem)

faith what is true faith?
i don't know if this question has boggled the minds of men
but what i do know is that faith has no end
its not something you can win its not something you can earn, but it is something.
something like a burn...
its a burning sensation that dwells deep within your soul
its knowing that threw the love of Christ Jesus you are made whole,
and believe you me you will soon see without a shadow of a doubt what Christ truly was and is all about!
Christ Jesus died on the cross to eradicate sins and once your heart fully takes that in... that is when you know the severity of our day to day sin.
true faith is that sensation within that says "stand firm don't give in!"
true faith is knowing that we get a second chance,
true faith is when your willing to take a stance!
a stance against evil a stance against the dark forces that invade our lives day in and day out!
i don't know about you but I've had enough and i want Satan out!
i want to live my life i want to live it rite
i want to live my life and i want to live it by the light.
the only way to accomplish this difficult task
and trust me when i say its difficult,
is to seek him with your heart your whole heart.
you can pray all day and cry all night but if your heart isn't truly there then you are fighting a soon to be victory less fight!
I'm sorry if my words cut deep and stick in but you have