THE WAR (a spoken word poem)

THE WAR-by Tony May

Days go by, people come and flee, love appears and vanishes in the blink of an eye.

Hope and pain, at times feels as if they were one and the same.

Anguish and sorrow, feelings like there is no point in waking up for tomorrow.

What happened to feelings of true love and bliss?

Where did all the hope go? When is it time feel free?

There was once a time when I could look up to the heavens and I would be relieved of my burden, but something must have happen between now and then. Because no matter how hard I try this agony just wont end. My compassion is dwindling, my faith has wavered, my life has no meaning, I don't know if I can go on on my own. But that’s just it! I cant go on on MY OWN, I cant do it MY SELF, I cant do it ALONE. I NEED help, I NEED Christ, I NEED brothers and sisters of the cross, I NEED guidance.

Fighting a war alone is a lost cause so what makes this spiritual war any different? What makes this fight and easy one, in which I a lowly man can take on Satan? If we expect to take on the forces of darkness we NEED fellow warriors of the light to stand side by side in this war. Our body armor of Righteousness dawned, our belt of Truth around our waist,our helmet of Salvation fitted, with our shield of Faith, and our sword of the Spirit raised up high for all of man to see! This fight is not about me this fight is not my own but once I excepted Christ Jesus as my savior, I agreed to be a warrior in His holy army! Christ builds us up, and Satan tries to break us down. These times when we are falling short and falling away from Christ theses are the times in which we need to stop and think twice. Satan is clouding our minds, and laying down road blocks, trying to make us stumble and and fall. But with the help of our brothers and sisters of the cross it is Satan who soon shall fall!

Coming back is the hardest thing yet.

As I sit her trying to write something meaningful and inspiring I find my self at a lose, not at lose for words but a lose for THE Word, there was a day when I was lost IN the Word, but now I feel so absurd trying to write a rhyme, when in all honesty I’m just wasting time… Not my time but Gods time, I’m wasting the time He has given me on this earth, in the time I’ve wasted I could have given birth. I was once an active advocate for the Word but now I am no more then a bird, a bird with a broken wing, thinking to my self “I’m grown, I can fix it, it’ll heal!” when in all actuality I’m hoping someone will come along pick me up and with enough love and affection my broken wing will heal. But in stead of a bird, I’m a grown man that can barely stand and instead of a wing I have a broken heart, not broken in the modern sense, but broken in the biblical sense . Like I said earlier I was lost IN the Word, but now I’m lost IN the world, lost in parties, money, and girls, lost in this sink whole we know only as “The world”. iv been lost for so long I don’t remember what it feels like to be found, but here I am my feet planted firmly on this ground . I’m ready to start this journey, I’m ready for this trip to begin, I’m ready to stand up finally and say “NO” to sin. I’m ready on the outside but am I ready with in?! the quick answer is no, no im not ready. I’m in no way shape or form ready for this, my heart is still broken, my soul needs a fix, my mind is all over, I’m not fully sure if God exists . But I have Faith, it may not be a lot but its there.. it’s not something I can see, touch, or hear. But I know in my heart the Christ is near, Christ saved my life from my stepfathers knife, on the dreadful night when he took the life of my Mother and brother, Christ saved my life. He save me years later from my self, he saved me from the drugs, he saved me from my self Christ Jesus saved me from who knows what else, and that is why I have Faith.

PS: im not sure if this is done or not its just where i am rite now.