If you know me outside of this virtual world, then you know that for the past month or so i have been very sedentary in my faith in fact you could say that after last Friday my faith was almost nonexistent.. i have been having such a hard time trying to wrap my head around life, around God, around want he wants me to do with my life. A dear friend of mine has past away on the 6th and well it really took its tole on me it really ripped me away from my belief system. i guess you can say that it was just the out i needed. the truth is, I am scared of living a good life for Christ. Yeah i know i have been living a life if Christ since 1/1/10 but.. so many things have been beating me down so much spiritual attack and so much uncertainty has invaded my mind and when Alex passed it was just like "GOD? are you there? where are you, why do i feel like you have left me? why don't i feel your love? why is Satan pulling me down? Please Father show me you care, show me you love me show me you are real!" and i couldn't take it so i just shut down but now i'm ready to live for God again, i guess the reason i'm telling you this is so you know that everyone is subject to the mental, emotional, and spiritual beat down we call life. i will be taking it slow i will be posting but.. don't be scared if my style changes. i'm still tony and i still love God but i need some time to figure out what God wants of me and my life..
PEACE, LOVE, AND KINDNESS
Tony May.
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