Take Hold. (a Poem)

My name's Tony May and i'm here to make a confession rite here, rite now, today!

here's the deal, it's time to take off my mask and be real.

For so long i refused to feel, for years i refused to open up and let my broken heart heal.

I've seen bad things happen to good people, yet i flock to sin.

Now I run to the cross bearing steeples, in hopes of becoming one of Gods chosen people.

i count my self as one of Christ's children but when it boils down to i have the same mind set as other lost men.

not knowing were i went wrong, or what Christ is calling me to do. i feel constantly lost, wishing i knew what i'm here to do.

i'm only one man with not a lot to offer the Kingdom of Christ, but i will do anything for the Son that payed the biggest price.

i was a cheat, i was a liar, i was and adulterer and a sin supplier.

but like the words of Jeremy Camp "You'll take me back always "

i don't know when and i have no clue how, but once i surrender i know ill feel his love come down!

i'm far from flawless, i'm no where near a saint. my light may not be a raging fire but its far from faint..

i'm just a lost soul waiting for God to pick me up dust me off and build me back up to whole.

i'm sick of this waiting game, i'm so beat down by life i'm so close to giving up but then comes the light!

the light in my heart, the light that lets me know that that this is only a start.

the start of a beautiful relationship, do you give up in a marriage after your first fight?

no! that's rite you forgive one another and live and love another night!

so what makes that relationship different the the one with our God? think about it doesn't it strike you as odd?

so many people are willing to give up at after the first "fight", so quick to shut out there internal light.

are you willing to pick up your cross and fight? if not it quite alright.

just remember Christ is always ready to fight...

fight for you to be wrapped in the Holy light!