Feeling fake. (poem)

i preach, i pray, i talk about God every single day.
i act like im holy i act like i know whats best, but deep down in side i cant feel Christ in my chest,
i know that he died for me, i know because of it i am free,
no matter how hard i try, i cant seem to reach that high,
no matter how hard i fight i cant seem to feel the way i did that night,
no matter what steps i try to take, deep down in my heart i still feel fake
i was so on fire so in love, i was willing to give my life to the God above,
i ran, i sprinted, i dove into a life for Christ,

i gave up the drugs i gave up the sex,
i lifted my head and i cried "Christ what's next?"
i gave up all that i once knew i gave it all up i gave it all up for you!
you changed me Lord, you showed me that this isn't my life to live this is yours,
but still inside i feel fake, in side i feel like im worth less then the slithering snake
i long to feel the way i once did,
i long to to feel like i belong, but every thing i try just feels wrong,
i feel like iv let you down, i feel lower then the dirt on the ground,
i know that you love me regardless, i know that you love me for all my faults as well as strength,
i know that you love me Lord i know that its not fake, i ask that you lift me up and fill this half empty tank!